An In-Between Time...

You know those day when you wake up and think that this just isn't my life.  Well I definitely didn't wake up thinking that, but I do now. Well let me tell you a bit about yesterday, and then hopefully you will be able to understand the feelings I have today.

We went to work yesterday for a full 8 hour spread at work. Pretty easy day, but it was Saturday, and so hard not to catch myself looking out the window daydreaming about being home. The boss man decided to have some Crawfish shipped in from LA, and everyone was bustling around doing other things for the Cookout.  It was hard to concentrate as it was, but then you have all these people talking about hanging out, and a party.  I was done for! So we left about half an hour early so we could get ready, and comfortable for the cookout, oh and we made Angel food cake with Amish Strawberries a top, and we brought cool whip for those who desired.

We went to the cookout with a few drinks in hand, as instructed, then was offered a million drinks upon arrival.  The most notable was a wonderfully fresh Watermelon Vodka Martini. I didn't partake, though I did drink what I had brought, yes the whole bottle of Bahama Mamma's.  They cooked Crawfish, Potatoes, Corn on the Cob, Mushrooms, Sausage, and of course some Drunk Chicken for those of us who couldn't have the Shellfish.  It was delicious, let me tell you!

Upon deciding it was time to leave, our boss man decides to give us one more drink.  So he makes us his special drink, which is basically Double Vodka, Pineapple Juice, Cranberry Juice, on the rocks.  It was good, but a little bit much for me, so I did end up drinking most of it, and pouring a little bit of it out on the grass. Then thanked everyone, and finally made it out of there.  It was already 9:30 PM when we got home so we all just passed out.

When we went to work today I am pretty sure we did it against our will, and then when we did get there we found out that most had listened to their will. We stayed for our time though and worked. Then instead of going to the movies like we planned, because everything that we plan in advance never ends up happening, we just went and got our groceries at Riesbeck's.  I ended up renting The Vow while I was there, so when we came home I hooked my computer up the TV and we all sat own to watch it.

I loved it!  My immediate reaction was amazement that once in a lifetime love could come around twice.  To be able to relive that kind of love all over again.  To fall for the same man under different terms, and circumstances.  Not everyone gets that chance, and just like the girl who the movie is based on who never remembered.  She lived a new love with the same man.  Oh what I would give not to remember sometimes.  Of course to forget the bad time, sometimes the price is all the good times.  I would never want to give up my memories, some I might want to change, but then who would I be?

On the other side, to love someone enough to let them find who thy are again.  To love them enough to let them go, not knowing whether they will ever come back.  I think I would rather live with the few great memories we had together, than to force someone to live a life they might regret. To love is easy, to let go is hard.  I couldn't imagine being able to give that gift, or even have someone to love enough that would stand by, watch, and love you anyway. No matter the decisions you make, even if that does mean letting go, even forever.

Of course the girls didn't end up liking it as much, upon the ending they both got up, and stalked out saying how much the movie sucked.  That's okay though, I mean everyone likes things for different reasons, everyone likes stories for different reasons.  I do tend to love the stories about hope, and I felt that this one gave hope to all those that have forgotten, or made a mistake, or just wish things had turned out differently.

Of course it can't always work out for everyone, but my friend Nancy has a wonderful saying "You Get Out of Life What You Settle For". So if you are unhappy only you can change it. If you felt regret for never telling someone something, maybe the best cure is to tell that person. Not with anger, or spite, but with just your true honest intentions.  I think we are made up of of our life's experiences, and to ignore some experiences or feelings is to ignore a part of yourself.

Well I have dragged on enough, I will talk to you later!